Friday night. Rob is back on the 16th floor of NYU Medical Center, where his first round of chemo got started. He was an inpatient there for ten days in early November. Now that he’s back there, it feels almost comfortable, with many of the familiar nurses taking care of him again. But, of course, I do miss him being with us in the apartment! Jim and I were discussing tonight just how good Rob’s care has been here in NY — we are so very grateful for that!
Jim and I ran out for dinner to a wonderful, small Italian “neighborhood” restaurant. It was quite close to the hospital, at 29th and 3rd. We brought back food for Ashley and Rob, who were in the hospital room playing Monopoly. Then we watched some football on the two small TVs in Rob’s room (two different games, of course). The reason he has two TVs is that his room is technically a double room, but the other bed has been removed. Since he is “neutropenic” (increased susceptibility to infection), he cannot have a roommate now, unlike his quad-room experience back in November. And, the TVs are tiny, unlike the large flat screen that he somehow obtained at the foot of his bed during his first stay.
Next week we have scheduled consultations with several surgeons regarding Rob’s upcoming surgery, depending on his hospital release, that is. There seems to be an understanding of the possibility of having to reschedule these appointments as there are unpredictable forces at play, like unforeseen hospital stays.
I admit that I’ve been reticent when praying for Rob’s tumor, not being bold about asking God to just make it go away. I’m not sure why this is — I have no doubt that God can do anything — with God all things are possible (Matthew 19:26). I truly believe this. As Jim and I talked about the power of prayer tonight, I realized that I’ve been stymied when praying. So, I believe that the best course of action is to boldly ask, knowing that God’s answer will come as it will, accepting that His grace is sufficient and He will provide. God’s love for us is pervasive and immense — Rob is His child, and He will never forsake him. The assurance of this knowledge gives me an indescribable peace — what a blessing!